My love

Love is an amazing feeling that I am lucky enough to feel. My boyfriend and I have been dating for 9 months and it's been great! Although I gotta say, I do freak sometimes. Reason being before we started dating we acted like we were practically dating. We had our first kiss, we to school dances together and hung out and whatnot before. But during that time it was always an on/off thing. It would scare me so much to think that I was gonna lose him that I would start shaking and crying and just having a major meltdown. Luckily we both finally started dating in December of last year (he wrote me a song to ask me out :)). Yesterday i saw him and even though i was mad at him at first, he just made me feel more and more happy. He was even going to send me a morning message saturday morning but it didn't get sent. Here is some of what it said:

You're my world. My everything. You dance around my mind and heart like the breeze across the ocean. You create waves that I cannot put into words. A flow through my soul that can never be explained, but it's felt throughout the ages.

The way he makes me feel when I'm with him makes me feel like I can be myself and always makes me happy any time I'm down. Words cannot describe how much he means to me. My other half. And yes even though I'm 18, I know what love feels like and I'm glad I have someone to share those emotions with.
xoxo, Paige

Horomones were created by the devil

I hate horomones. Why does there have to be horomones? Or can i just get rid of some of them or something? Stupid girl horomones. Sometimes i feel like a a pregnant lady; emotional and just all over the place. It's insane! Hopefully i can find some way to reduce my anxiety and stress and just feel like myself again. I didn't even go to school today cause I woke up at 4:30 a.m. and couldn't go back to sleep cause i was having an anxiety attack.. I sometimes think like i need to go to a therapist or something but maybe i'm just getting carried away. If anyone has any suggestions to how to stop my anxiety attacks or ways to help me calm down when i need it, feel free to comment please!!! I just wanna feel normal again.. xoxox Paige

Babysitting 101

So yesterday I had to babysit my baby cousin. I thought the first time i babysat him would be nerve recking, but yesterday was worse! Yesterday was the first time i ever changed a diaper. I probably looked like an idiot trying to figure out how to get that thing on him. I would try lifting up his legs and i was thinkjng "what if i'm hurting him?" So i tried lifting up his back and tried putting the diaper under... no that didn't work either. So i just put him off to the side, put the diaper down and put him on top of it. It looked messy but... it kinda worked! I mean at least he had one on. haha. Then the rest of the time i had to keep him occupied.. I nevr really noticed how much you have to act like a little kid around a little kid. Like even the toughest guy out there would probably go up to a baby and start making silly faces and acting like a pig or whatever (I decided to act like i was snoring at first, then like a duck...) just to make a baby laugh! Thats what I like about being arounde babies; when your around them and start acting weird, it's ok cause people know why your doing it and your not completely making a fool of yourself. Other than that, it was a pretty good babysitting experience just for it being my second time! I think I deserve a cookie or something ;)

First post!

First blog ever! Woot woot! lol ok. So my name is Paige, as you can tell I like the beach (who doesn't!) and I dance... that's basically all the information you need to know about me. This blog is basically a place where you will here/see a bunch of random stuff from moi aaand... yup. That's it! xoxo, Paige